I don't need anything. That's true but I want it all. I want to believe in you but I've seen it fade. Dear faces falling away from me. I let them go. Every time it got harder. Staying close is often looking from afar. So it goes. I always lose the things that I've come to love the most. Pray it be so no longer.
What do you believe in? What is God? What are the thoughts that set you into motion? Are you devoted to a cause? I suppose nobody has the answers but there is meaning in the words. Let me but taste them.
Yah, it's the same damn world that I grew up in. So don't tell me it's changing. Yah, I know there is an angry wind howling through the days of man. I am staying inside of my bedroom. It's quiet. It's cold outside. Still the sun beats down like a hammer splitting my skull.
Everything that I believed in, I wanna rip it apart. Strip it down to the bone. Body and soul raped and raw. So why am I won't to live like my father. On this earth he was born to ramble. So why am I won't to live like my father before me. On this earth was I really born to ramble?
Coming are darker days. For a while all we'll see. Sometimes that's all I can think of. I am blinded by the things I cannot perceive. So how am I to trust anything? And you... You once said that there is nothing left. What we hold onto is long dead. So then what does it mean to be? Why am I anything? Why am I won't to wander if it's over?
Words! Words! Words! Words that I say over and over though I know I do not mean them anymore. I never found the words to take their place I guess. But I've been thinking on it and I don't care if there's no plan. Just as long as I can get to where I'm going. So these words I'm saying now, they are wholly new. I don't want to live a life that's lost it's meaning. I don't wanna live a life that's lost its meaning.
released December 31, 2014
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